TBP

No matter what I feel my feelings are just a limitation.  

HE will show me eternal thoughts. And the Devil will pay for trying to get at me.

HE will make Him pay.

And WE will be joyful.

I am choosing JOY, because happiness isn’t enough.

Joy mends things, happiness doesn’t.

ryanmarcum:

The most dangerous thing to Satan is a sinner’s hope. Jesus = the Truth & the Life.

That I shut off an open mind to human love at times because I can’t comprehend the possibility of anyone ever truly feeling something towards me as true love.  Truthfully it’s because people always treat me so different that I feel God is the only person who really see’s my heart.  People usually come to me to get filled and then continue on there designated paths of life.  If you asked me how many people actually took time to seek my heart out I can honestly say none have.  It’s not that I’m hard hearted, unloving or even afraid of being loved.  It’s just that when I try to show people what love is to me, they never get it.  I find that as something hard to accept about myself sometimes.  I’ll always be different and that’s okay. God made me this way and He had a great idea behind why He did it.  I know people say I’m wise and such, but matters of the heart are completely different things.  I’m not prude with my heart, soul and mind.  No, I don’t like physicality because physicality is shallow.  That doesn’t mean I don’t like physical touch, it just means I want to give my heart and soul as well as my beauty.  Is that wrong? No absolutely not.  I’m a all or nothing person.  Do I think I’ll ever find someone who understands that? Maybe and maybe not. But as long as I live in a world where I’m questioned because I defy status quo, because I don’t enjoy shallow living.  Because I simply believe that eternity is worth more time than things that die then who knows.  All I know is that day by day I’m giving more and more to eternity and death with have nothing to take anymore because I won’t have anything to be taken.  Can a man ever understand this?  I pray everyday for a love who will.  Because truly my biggest vulnerability is feeling that I’ll never be understood.